The first weekend with Matt away was really hard. I had my best friend Natalie come up to stay with me for the weekend, and we both went up to see my family and spend time with them. We all watched the Ravens game together because - HELLO, we are from MD! That's our team! Even though they lost it was a great game and we all had an amazing time together. We also helped move some stuff into my parents' new house, which I am totally in love with (and truthfully a little jealous of!) That completely took myself out of the situation and made me focus on things other than the current events. While I am so happy I had the time with my great friends and family, coming back to reality was even harder. Natalie left, and I started back to work - but coming home to an empty house that first night was a reality check. Which is so weird, because I have done this before - he has gone on underways and I have been alone. However this time it was different. Like I said in the last post, it seems like the time that he is going to be gone is just looming over my head. I know I can't focus on that and focus on events and things that are going to make time fly, but it's something I have to learn how to deal with. I am always the type of person to try to find the positive in everything, and I am determined to do the same thing with this deployment. I really want to kick it's ass.
some of us together for the Ravens game - hey we still bleed purple no matter what!
Kit and her pal Emmy during the Ravens game!
Also, I sent my first cake package today! It was a care package for both his birthday and Valentine's Day, so he is getting alot of goodies! Cards, candies, snacks, books, movies, games! Putting that stuff together is fun, I enjoying collecting things that he loves. Having that little piece of home with him makes me feel even closer to him so far away. Overall, I have started to feel a little better about this deployment as time has gone on. Sure, I am sad and I get upset over the littlest things - for example, I asked a lady at Barnes and Noble for a book for military wives and deployment and I had to fight tears as I was speaking the words. That will all get easier in time. I miss him so much and I love him more and more each day, and we get a chance to email on average once a day and we tell each other that all the time. Seeing his email in my inbox just makes every worry disappear. He is the greatest husband in the world and I thank my lucky stars for him.
Until next time, world! Goodnight! <3
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